Happy New Year

Merry Christms & Happy New Year

Happy Birthday To Me.. :)

All eyes on the calendar

Another year I claim of total indifference

To here, the days pile up

With decisions to be made, I'm sure all of them were wrong

Into this song I send myself

And with these drinks I plan to collapse

And forget this wasted year, these wasted years

Devoted friends, they disappear

And I'm sorry about the phone call and needing you

Some decisions you don't make

I guess it's just like breathing or not wanting to

There are some things you can't fake

I guess that it's typical

To cling to memories you'll never get back again

And to sort through old photographs

Of a summer long ago or a friend that you used to know

And there below

His frozen face

You wrote the name and that ancient date, that ancient date

And you can't believe that he's really gone

When all that's left is a fucking song and

I'm sorry about the phone call; and waking you.

I know that it is late,

But thank you for talking, because I needed to.

Some things just can't wait.

Happy Diwali..!!!

U Me Aur Hum..!!!

I simply love this song....

Apne Rang Gawaen Bin, Mere Rang Mein Ghul Jaao
Apne Rang Gawaen Bin, Mere Rang Mein Ghul Jaao
Apni Dhoop Bujhaye Bin, Meri Chhaon Mein Aa Jao

O Chalo Yun Kare,
Tum, Tum Bhi Raho, Main, Main Bhi Rahoon
Hum, Hum Bhi Rahein
Tum, Tum Bhi Raho, Main, Main Bhi Rahoon
Hum, Hum Bhi Rahein
Teeno Mil Ke Saath Chale
Saathi Janam Janam, U Me Aur Hum.
U Me Aur Hum, U Me Aur Hum.

Apne Rang Gawaen Bin, Mere Rang Mein Ghul Jao
Apni Dhoop Bujhaye Bin, Meri Chhao Mein Aa Jao

Tu Meri Khamoshiyon Ka, Saaz Hai
Teri Lafzon Mein Meri Aawsaz Hai

Tu Meri Khamoshiyon Ka, Saaz Hai
Teri Lafzon Mein Meri Aawaaz Hai
Raaz Ye Sabhi Hum Tum,
Jaan Lein Abhi Hum Tum.

O Teri Aasoo Ki Ladi,
Meri Aankhon Se Bahe
Har Khushi Chhoti Badi, Tere Hoton Pe Rahe,
O Chal Yun Jeeyein,
Sau Gham Bhi Ho Agar, Aankh Nam Bhi Ho Par
Dil Dil Hi Rahe,
Milke Saare Khwaab Jeeyein
Milke Sabhi Bharam
U Me Aur Hum.

Happy Dussehra !!!

Durga Ashtami.

Durgashtami, or Durga Ashtami, is the eight day of the Navaratri and Durga Puja celebrations. Durgastami is also known as Mahashtami and is one of the important days of Durga Puja and a fasting is undertaken by many people. Weapons of Goddess Durga are worshipped on the day and it is known Astra Puja. The day is also known as Virashtami as there are displays using arms or martial arts. It is one of the most important day for Goddess Worship in Hindu religion.

There is also a belief in some regions that Goddess Kali appeared from the forehead of Durga on this day to annihilate Chanda and Munda and Rakthabija. During the Durga Puja rituals on Mahashtami day the 64 Yoginis and Ashtanayikas – the eight consorts – of Durga are also worshipped.

The eight consorts of Durga, also known as Eight Shaktis, are interpreted differently in different regions of India. But ultimately all the eight goddesses are incarnations of Shakti with different aims. Sometimes they are also an attempt to give form to a particular aspect of Shakti.

The Ashtanayikas that are worshipped during Durga Puja are Brahmani, Maheswari, Kameswari, Vaishnavi, Varahi, Narasinghi, Indrani and Chamunda.

Numerous minor deities including many attendants and guards of Durga are worshipped on the day.

A fast is observed by staunch Durga devotees on Durga Ashtami. Both men and women observe the fast. Shakti temples conduct special pujas on the day and are visited by millions of devotees.

Durgashtami day ends with Sandhi puja, which overlaps into the next day which is the Mahanavami day.

Tomato Story

I read this story somewhere.. liked it so posting it here..!!

A Jobless man applied for the position of 'office boy' at Microsoft. The HR manager interviewed him then watched him cleaning the floor as a test.

'You are employed' he said. 'Give me your e-mail address and I'll send you the application to fill in, as well as date when you may start.'

The man replied 'But I don't have a computer, neither an email'. 'I'm sorry', said the HR manager. 'If you don't have an email, that means you do not exist. And who doesn't exist, cannot have the job.'

The man left with no hope at all. He didn't know what to do, with only $10 in his pocket. He then decided to go to the supermarket and buy a 10Kg tomato crate. He then sold the tomatoes in a door to door round. In less than two hours, he succeeded to double his capital. He repeated the operation three times, and returned home with $60.

The man realized that he can survive by this way, and started to go everyday earlier, and return late. Thus, his money doubled or tripled everyday.

Shortly, he bought a cart, then a truck, and then he had his own fleet of delivery vehicles.

5 years later, the man is one of the biggest food retailers in the US... He started to plan his family's future, and decided to have a life insurance.

He called an insurance broker, and chose a protection plan. When the conversation was concluded the broker asked him his email. The man replied,'I don't have an email.' The broker answered curiously, 'You don't have an email, and yet have succeeded to build an empire. Can you imagine what you could have been if you had an e mail?!!' The man thought for a while and replied, 'Yes, I'd be an office boy at Microsoft!'

Moral of the story

Moral 1

Internet is not the solution to your life.

Moral 2

If you don't have Internet, and work hard, you can be a millionaire.

Moral 3

If you received this message by email, you are closer to being a office boy/girl, than a millionaire..........

Depressed Teenager

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Way back into love..!!!

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

A long straight road

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"When thou see an eagle, thou see a portion of genius; lift up thy head."

A man found an eagle's egg and put it in the nest of a barnyard hen. The eagle hatched with the brood of chicks and grew up with them. All his life, the eagle did what the barnyard chicks did, thinking he was a barnyard chicken. He scratched the earth for worms and insects. He clucked and cackled. And he thrashed his wings and flew a few feet in the air.

Years passed and the eagle grew very old. One day he saw a magnificent bird above him in the cloudless sky. It glided in graceful majesty among powerful wind currents, with scarcely a beat of its strong, golden wings.

The old eagle looked up in awe, "Who's that?" he asked.
"That's the eagle, the king of birds," said one of the hens. "He belongs to the sky. We belong to the earth - we're chickens."

So the eagle lived and died a chicken, for that is what he thought he was.

My friend, you too were born for the sky. As a unique human being, you have, deep within yourself, a burning desire to achieve something with your life. But for many people, the reality is that they get so caught-up in the daily-grind of trying to make a living, that they never really discover that desire and so they end up living their entire lives like the "chicken".

What the "chicken" really needed was to discover that he really was an eagle; and then he would have been able to begin to learn how to fly (even eagles need to learn); and eventually he would learn how to soar.

To All My Girl friends

A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day, drinking iced tea and visiting her Mother. As they talked about life, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon her daughter. Don't forget your girlfriends," she advised, swirling the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. "They'll be more important as you get older. No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the children you'll have, you are still going to need girlfriends. Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them. And remember that "girlfriends" are not only your friends, but your sisters, your daughters, and other relatives too. You'll need other women. Women always do. What a funny piece of advice, the young woman thought. 'Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a married woman, for goodness sake, a grownup, not a young girl who needs girlfriends! Surely my husband and the family we'll start will be all I need to make my life worthwhile!'

But she listened to her Mother; she kept contact with her girlfriends and made more each year. As the years tumbled by, one after another, she gradually came to understand that her Mom really knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman, girlfriends are the mainstays of her life. After 50 years
of living in this world, here is what I know about girlfriends:

Girlfriends bring you chicken curry when you need help.
Girlfriends keep your children and keep your secrets.
Girlfriends give advice when you ask for it. Sometimes you take it, sometimes you don't. Girlfriends don't always tell you that you're right, but they're usually honest.
Girlfriends still love you, even when they don't agree with your choices.
Girlfriends laugh with you, and you don't need canned jokes to start the laughter.
Girlfriends pull you out of jams.
Girlfriends help you get out of bad relationships.
Girlfriends help you look for a new apartment, help you pack, and help you move.
Girlfriends will give a party for your son or daughter when they get married or have a baby, in whichever order that comes!
Girlfriends are there for you, in an instant and when the hard times come.
Girlfriends listen when you lose a job or a friend.
Girlfriends listen when your children break your heart.
Girlfriends listen when your parents' minds and bodies fail.
Girlfriends support you when the men in your life let you down.
Girlfriends help you pick up the pieces when men pack up and go.
Girlfriends rejoice at what makes you happy, and are ready to go out and kill what makes you unhappy.
Times passes.
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Love waxes and wanes.
Hearts break.
Careers end.
Jobs come and go.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favors.
Men don't call when they say they will.
BUT girlfriends are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you.
A girlfriend is never farther away than needing her can reach.

If I had my life to live over again...!!!

If I had my life to live over, I'd dare to make more mistakes next time.

I'd relax; I'd limber up. I would be sillier than I have been this trip.

I would take fewer things seriously.

I would take more chances.

I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers.

I would eat more ice cream and less beans.

I would perhaps have more actual troubles, but I'd have fewer imaginary ones.

I would have played more often and pored less over my books....

I would have sailed more paper boats in the rain, than wonder if I would catch a cold in the weather....

I would have enjoyed a few more chocolates, regardless of cavities....

I would have painted more empty egg shells ....

I would have been less conscious about having a perfect smile for the camera, and rather been myself....

I would have clicked more black-and-white pictures.....

I would have stomped through some more puddles during the monsoon... and crunched a lot more dry foliage during autumn......

I would have gone on more treks...... and thought less about falling down a ravine....

I would have been more receptive when accepting criticism and more thoughtful before giving it...

I would have burst more bubble-wrap!

I would have said more "thank Q"s and "I love you"s and lesser "Sorry"s

I would have sat on more roller coasters and screamed my head off, rather than be watching from the scared-albeit-envious crowd below......

I would have believed in Santa till I was 18 :)

I would have learnt to play the guitar.

I would have roamed around India in my early twenties instead of wasting them away.

I would have seen more sunrises.

You see, I'm one of those people who lived sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day. Oh, I had my moments, and if I had to do it over again, I'd have more of them. In fact, I'd try to have nothing else. Just moments, one after the other, instead of living so many years ahead of each day. I've been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute. If I had it to do over again, I would travel lighter than I have.

If I had my life to live over again, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall.

I would go to more dance.

I would ride more merry-go-rounds.

I would pick more daisies.

I would have winked at some good looking hunk ;-) .... just this once !!!

If you want to know who I am... ASK...!!

Sail Away...!!!

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails.

Explore. Dream. Discover.

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Swati
Birthday:	3rd Nov. U really want met to tell u the year.
Birthplace:	that was a hospital..
Current Location:	India
Eye Color:	Black
Hair Color:	Black
Height:	5'4"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Righty..
Your Heritage:	I think my grandparents were from UP.
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Actually Flip flops. Haven't worn them in forever. It's nice.
Your Weakness:	Good surprises.
Your Fears:	Someone I love getting hurt.
Your Perfect Pizza:	Veggies & lots of cheese.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	loose those extra pounds.. hahaha
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol
Thoughts First Waking Up:	I wish I would have gone to bed earlier...
Your Best Physical Feature:	eyes
Your Bedtime:	I love staying up late.
Your Most Missed Memory:	Spending weekends with besties.
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke all the way.
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Mac for sure.
Single or Group Dates:	Both.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Not really a fan of either.
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate is a way to a girl's heart.
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Coffee Coffee Coffee
Do you Smoke:	Nope.
Do you Swear:	Who the hell doesn't.
Do you Sing:	In the shower and the car.. rather u name the place and I can do it.
Do you Shower Daily:	Of course. I'm kinda a clean freak. Kinda.
Have you Been in Love:	Sure have.
Do you want to go to College:	I have been.
Do you want to get Married:	Someday.
Do you belive in yourself:	Always.
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Naah.
Do you think you are Attractive:	For sure. A girl's gotta be confident.
Are you a Health Freak:	I think balence in everything is the only way to be.
Do you get along with your Parents:	I love my mom & dad.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Love them!
Do you play an Instrument:	I wish I could learn to play guitar or violin.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Nope.
In the past month have you Smoked:	No go on that.
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Nope sorry.
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Been busy.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Haha. I think shopping is a great addiction. lol.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	Naah.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Not a sushi fan.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	I haven't been on stage but I have given a lot of trainings.
In the past month have you been Dumped:	No. I haven't had a serious relationship.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	Haha. No.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Nope.
Ever been Drunk:	Um. Never... Ok I have.
Ever been called a Tease:	No teasin here just straight up skills.
Ever been Beaten up:	Naah.
Ever Shoplifted:	Ok so 4 questions above they ask if you have ever stolen anything. Are they serious.
How do you want to Die:	When I'm old.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	M I still supposed to Grow Up.. lol.
What country would you most like to Visit:	Australia or South Africa
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	Sorry, I don't really count my regrets. Didn't mean to let you down.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Goodbye Sam Bahadur..!!!

If you have to die, do so around Delhi or Mumbai

By: Krishna Prasad.

The passing away of the only Indian to be appointed Field Marshal when in active service has been remarkable for the warmth of the ordinary men and women, who queued up to say meebeenamet to the adorable dikra who put his life on the line for them.

It has also been remarkable for the complete lack of grace and gratitude, civility and courtesy, decency and decorum on the part of the bold-faced names rapaciously grazing the lawns of power in Delhi and elsewhere, for the brain behind India's only decisive military victory.

Sam, the Bahadur, had been unwell for a while now. From about 1000 hours on June 26, reports of his being 'critically ill' had appeared in the media. Yet, when the 'expected tocsin' sounded at 0030 hours till the guns were fired in salute around 1500 hours on June 27, 'civil society' chose to show its incivility.

Pratibha Patil, the commander-in- chief of the armed forces with all the time in the world: Absent
Hamid Ansari: Vice-president releasing books and writing reviews of books by fellow-travellers: Absent
Manmohan Singh, the prime minister who could do with a bit of the field marshal's charisma and heroism: Absent
Sonia Gandhi: daughter-in- law of the woman the field marshal called 'sweetie': Absent
L K Advani: prime minister in waiting of the party which would like to do to Pakistan what Manekshaw did: Absent
M Karunanidhi and Surjit Singh Barnala: chief minister and governor of the state which Manekshaw had made his home for 35 years: Absent

Politicians may have their reasons. They always do. Maybe, there are issues like protocol. Maybe, this is one way in which 'civil India ' shows the armed forces its place. Maybe, this is why we are not as militaristic as Pakistan. Maybe, the knees are just too old to climb the hills.

But what about the armed forces itself?

A K Antony: the defence minister 'now behaving like the chairman of the confederation of the armed forces' trade unions: absent 'due to prior political engagements'.
The Chief of Army Staff: absent (away in Russia)
The Chief of Navy Staff: absent
The Chief of Air Staff: absent
The fact that the defence minister was represented by his deputy Pallam Raju, the fact that the navy and air staff sent two-star general rank officers, shows that however high or mighty, however rich or powerful, civilian or military, if you should die as you must, you should do so somewhere in the vicinity of New Delhi or Bombay.

Or else, they must have some use for you. Or else, too bad.

As he rightly surmised once: 'I wonder whether those of our political masters who have been put in charge of the defence of the country can distinguish a mortar from a motor; a gun from a howitzer; a guerrilla from a gorilla -- although a great many of them in the past have resembled the latter.'

The contrast couldn't be starker:

When Amitabh Bachchan was ill after being socked in the stomach during the shooting of Coolie, Indira Gandhi flew down to Bombay to show her concern.
When Dhirubhai Ambani died, L K Advani cut short his Gujarat tour to pay his respects to an 'embodiment of initiative, enterprise and determination'.
When Pramod Mahajan was shot dead by his brother, Vice President Bhairon Singh Shekawat had the time to attend the funeral.
Our VIPs and VVIPs have time for dead and dying celebrities, charlatans, fixers. Not for a field marshal?

In his biography, K M Cariappa, the only other field marshal India has had (and who too died at age 94), writes of his father's cremation in May 1993:

'Honouring him in death as they did in life were Field Marshal Manekshaw, the three service chiefs all of whom belonged to the same course and at whose passing out parade from the joint services wing father had presided, the gracious chief minister M Veerappa Moily and C K Jaffer Sharief, Minister for Railways representing the President as the supreme commanded of the armed forces.'

Somebody should have told the geniuses in Delhi that Sam, the Bahadur, passed away in Wellington, Ooty, not Wellington, New Zealand.

The nearest civil airport is Coimbatore, just 80 km away.

If this is how we say goodbye to Field Marshal Sam Manekshaw, any wonder why Rang de Basanti could successfully tap into the angst of an entire generation?

Just another roller coaster ride...

This one post have been in draft for almost a month.. somehow I decided not to write anymore, well who knows when ur mind can again change and you decide to start writting again... well here I am back yet once again and decided to finish this post..

March got over long back and its seems like that the life went through hell lot of miserable things... A job, people & place that I used to love but hated the management so decided to leave it at the start of the year.. Few friends whom I decided to leave behind as it was more of a burden & a formality to keep them further as a friend..

Lost two dear friends in last twelve months.

Life went through lot of changes, people who were close went far and people who were far came close... last two years of my life made me meet some of the worst people I have ever come across in my personal and professional life.. people who like to assume, make perceptions, dis-respect others, can perform cheap stunts to show others down, selfish & self centered.. and the list goes on...

Its an old saying but yes its true.. people can be egoistic bastards.. when u have already lost a battle and it does not exist anymore, they want to still give it another try to win an already lost battle... they find it so hard to accept that they have lost and they lost it being a MAN, and that too they lost it from a WOMAN..

I dont understand why people find it so difficult to leave their past behind and move on.. why they want to try and stop the sand of time to slip from their hands even when they know that when they would open their hands nothing would be left... Is it so diifficult to face the reality or the truth, well I believe not..

Namaste London...

Its been quiet some time that I have seen this movie.. but there is something about this movie that keeps reminding me of it again & again... there is a scene where Akshay Kumar is telling Katrina that how much he loves her and he is going to wait for her throughout his life...

"Ishq de mere mitra pehchan ki, mit jaye ye jadoo zidd aapnan de"
meaning : Sache pyaar ka matlab sirf haasil karna nahi hota...!!

In Loving Memory of my Angel Sherry...

7th Dec 1996 - 18th Mar 2008

An angel, a friend, a listener..... & I am falling short of words now.. my mind has suddenly stopped working and I still want to think that this news about you is just another nightmare.. I m not ready to except this fact that, this time when I m going to come home you wont come running up to me to see me at the gate... the thought of you not being there following me to every room I go to, makes my heart skip a heartbeat..

I still remember the day I got you home and you were 29 days old... and I was not ready for my exams to get over to bring you home.. I luv u & miss u so much... you were the first dog that I ever decided to bring home against all odds..

"Baby girl no matter how far you are right now you will always be in our heart; thanks for the wonderful 11 years you gave us, for all the love you gave us; Our house will never be the same without you. We love you always !"

Not drunk enough...!!

Its friday & I felt like posting something funny and I came across this video today while browsing around.. its kind off hilarious.. A woman who is drunk but is not drunk enough either to... watch it, to see for urself...

“It takes only one drink to get me drunk. The trouble is, I can't remember if it's the thirteenth or the fourteenth.”

Jodhaa Akbar & Whirling Dervishes...

How many of us really liked the movie Jodhaa Akbar.. may be a handful of people. But if I ask how many of us liked the song "Khwaja mere Khwaja..." most of us would say that they liked the song... what was it about the song that so many people liked it.. was it the music, the picturization or the words.. well i would say non of these things alone can be said as the only reason for the song to be a great work of art & in making it so spiritual....

During the movie when I saw the dance it reminded me of something that I had seen before and then there was no stopping I just couldn't sleep till I figured out what is that ritual or for some of us the dance called...

After lot of research and checking various websites I finally found the description and meaning of this ritual/dance form.

"The Whirling Dervishes trace their origin to the 13th century Ottoman Empire. They are also known as the Mevlevi Order and are Sufi, a spiritual offshoot of Islam. Today entertainers, not true Sufi perform most of the shows. Nevertheless, the performances are amazing and the concentration and training required to be able to spin for hours on end is immense.

The dance originates from the Sufi religion. The word Sufi is translated from the Arabic work Suf meaning wool or others believe from the Greek word 'sophos' meaning wisdom. There are also two fables on how the dance began. The first is when Rumi was walking through the goldsmith area of Konya in Turkey. He heard beautiful music in the craftsmen's hammering and began to turn in harmony. The second is the story of a tradesman spinning wool from a bale onto a spindle. In order to prevent the wool from breaking, the spinning movement had to be continuous from the right to the left hand.

The dance is called the Sema and begins with the Dervish extending their arms, the right palm up and the left palm down which could be related to the wool spinning fable. The mystic interpretation is that the power of the heavens enters into the upward extended right palm and passes through the body and leaves the lower left palm to enter into the Earth. The left leg should never be raised. The spinning represents the axis of the planets around the sun.

The word Dervish literally means doorway. He is a mystical dancer who stands between the material and cosmic worlds. Traditionally, the Dervishes start by wearing black cloaks symbolizing tombs, upon removal, so they remove themselves from the world. The purpose of the ritual whirling is to empty himself of all distracting thoughts, placing himself in a trance, his body conquering dizziness. The Sufis are viewed as the ones who are at the door to enlightenment. He accepts that he is the true instrument of God and therefore he does not question the power that comes and leaves him during the spinning trance."

I am sure this definitely serves as lot of information about the Whirling Dervishes.. or you can also check the links below.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mevlevi

or

http://www.dankphotos.com/whirling/

Testing the Waters…!!!

Have you ever wondered that what it takes to keep that temper in control or to keep yourself in control from yelling at somebody you would not want to yell at… whoa.. I have lately started feeling that I am kind of loosing patience very easily, well I guess I am not.. It’s only the people and the situations that make me over react at times as they call it..

Ok lets understand this… now there is somebody you know for 4 to 5 years and its more or less like knowing them for your whole life and there is not even a single day that you have not spoken to them, and one fine day they just make you feel as if they are taking you for granted ‘cause they think that, come what may you are always going to be there for them & the kind of feeling you have at that point of time confuses you and makes you ask your own self that where the hell is that relationship going? You know that your friend is facing tough time and is trying to fix things in their own life but lately the behavior has changed so much which worries you, that what they are going to make out of their life.

You are giving them space and time, and also you don’t want to leave them on their own or alone ‘cause you know they will get lost if you are not there. Now it’s been more then a week and you want to talk to them about it ‘cause you are worried, but they are just avoiding all the conversations that you try to make… & then you end up yelling at them, not willingly but unknowingly even when you have been telling yourself, that be it whatever, but you will not loose your temper at all.

The response you receive at that time is “don’t yell at me...”, & it makes you feel as if you have made a complete fool of yourself again & as if you have lost all the right you had on them all this while, good lord, why can’t I just control myself & why can’t I just remember that I don’t have to yell.

Hmmmm… I have been thinking about this for a while now and I guess it’s time to test waters and put our relationship on test, and I should give them some more time to think about what’s happening in and around this relationship and their own life. ‘Cause I am tired of Listening and Saying the word SORRY. I believe that when two people are friends and when they understand each other well they don’t need to give explanations to each other or say that freaky word. So I guess I made my decision but implementation is definitely going to be difficult, for sure…!!!

Bebasi Dard kaa Aalam....!!!

(bebasi dard kaa aalam, tum mujhe de do apne ghum - 2
khaamoshiyaan bhi do, tanhaaiyaan bhi do
bechaaniyaa bhi de do, de do naa) - 2

(bhigi palkon se churaa lungaa nami
rehane dungaa naa, khahin koi kami) - 2
tumko daaman naa bhigone dungaa
ab kabhi tumko naa rone dungaa
uljhane ghum ki parchhaiye
de do mujhe apni tanhaaiye
gumnamiyaan bhi do, naakaamiyaan bhi do
viraaniyaan bhi de do, de do naa

(tere hotho pe sajaa dungaa hansi
teri raahon mein bhichhaa dungaa khushi) - 2
tum mujhe apnaa maanti ho agar
yu khafaa hoke naa jhukaao nazar
mushkile apni majburi
ho de do mujhe sari benuri
pareshaaniyaaa bhi do, hairaaniyaa bhi do
nhigebaaniyaa bhi de do, de do naa

bebasi dard kaa aalam, tum mujhe de do apne ghum - 2
khaamoshiyaan bhi do, tanhaaiyaan bhi do,
bechaniyaa bhi de do, (de do naa- 2)

Why I Still Love You ?

I thought about you today, And for the first time it was not about the past, or the lies, it was not about the hurt, or the tears, It was not about my broken heart or what I used to wish the future would be. It was about the end to all that, and the beginning of a friendship. So I don't know why people say love never ends in friendship because mine for you has ...

Can't say how I feel, Can't tell if my heart would heal, but I always knew from the start I never really had your heart. So leave me, now before I cry. The pain is too much to say GOODBYE. But always remember each tear I shed is an I love you left unsaid.

Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street

Just another Saturday 1st march and was getting bored sitting at home.. finally decided to go for a movie with a close friend.. checked the newspaper and there you go a Johnny Depp movie great... "Sweeney Todd".. hmmmm but I was little sceptical as didn't see any trailer (thanks to daily schedule & lack of watching t.v.) and also did not hear anything about it till then... but 'cause its a Johnny Depp movie decided to go and watch the movie and dragged my friend along.. poor guy I guess he got bored watching the movie, but I definitely enjoyed the movie... here is little something about the movie.. "A Dark Musical"...

"Tim Burton was always known to be a director that didn't attend to the Academy's personal taste. His movies were true auteur works, always with a Gothic stunning visual and stories there weren't always what it seemed. It was as if Burton were filming every movie on Halloween. Now, however, it's going to be hard for the Academy to ignore Burton's new film- definitely his best one. Sweeney Todd offers the unlikely pairing of musical and horror. And, man, it works splendidly.

The story begins with Benjamin Barker's arrest by Judge Turpin, a true personification of evil, a man who doesn't think twice in convicting Barker for a crime he did not commit. Sent away of London, he returns with a new facet: Sweeney Todd, the Demon Barber of Fleet Street. Until this moment on, his barbershop is scenery to grim assassination- through which the evidences of murder are kept hidden thanks to the help of Mrs. Lovett, the baker. Sweeney vows revenge against the judge.

Burton's direction is truly fantastic, exploring his already trademark visuals with bravura. This time, the dark pictures really suit the story, in a way that they both contrast each other; for no matter how dark the city is, it can't compare to the citizens that live within it. Sweeney, once a pure man, becomes the darkest of them all. And there is no better actor in the world that could portray this like Johnny Depp does. His performance is a defining one, one that goes far beyond the Jack Sparrows, Edward Scissorhands, or J.M Barries that Depp portrayed with perfection. Sweeney Todd is a man torn apart by vengeance, a man that answers only to the call of death. Depp illustrates the psychological factors of the character in subtle nuances, giving one of the greatest performances in the history of cinema. A true achievement that lives up to the excellence of the entire movie. "

You Were My Everything....

This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy.

Mehfuz...

Zindagi Hai dhuan to kya
Bujh gayi har subah to kya
Rootha mujhse khuda to kya
Ho gaye hum juda to kya
Faasle they hazaaron darmiyan,
Waqt ke they hazaaron imtehaan
Fir bhi ban ke nishaan,
Tere honthon ke kisi kone mein Hansi ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Teri aankhon ke chipe dard mein Aansoo ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Bewajah har wajah to kya
Begunahii hai gunaah to kya
Beasar hai dua to kya
Ho gaye hum juda to kya
Raaz gehre hazaron bepanah
Lafz thehare hazaaron bejubaan
Fir bhi ban ke nishaan Tere honthe ke kisi kone mein Hansi ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Tere kesu ke mude pannon meinYaadon ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Mehfuz hoon Teri aankhon mein
Mehfuz hoonTeri yaadon mein
Mehfuz hoonTeri baaton mein
Mehfuz hoonTere baalon mein
Mehfuz hoon
Faasle the hazaron darmiyaan
Waqt ki thi hazaron aandhiyan
Fir bhi ban ke nishaan
Tere honthon ke kisi kone mein Hansi ke tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Tere kaandhe ke chipe til meinVaadon ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon