Tuesday, March 18, 2008

In Loving Memory of my Angel Sherry...

7th Dec 1996 - 18th Mar 2008

An angel, a friend, a listener..... & I am falling short of words now.. my mind has suddenly stopped working and I still want to think that this news about you is just another nightmare.. I m not ready to except this fact that, this time when I m going to come home you wont come running up to me to see me at the gate... the thought of you not being there following me to every room I go to, makes my heart skip a heartbeat..

I still remember the day I got you home and you were 29 days old... and I was not ready for my exams to get over to bring you home.. I luv u & miss u so much... you were the first dog that I ever decided to bring home against all odds..

"Baby girl no matter how far you are right now you will always be in our heart; thanks for the wonderful 11 years you gave us, for all the love you gave us; Our house will never be the same without you. We love you always !"

Friday, March 14, 2008

Not drunk enough...!!

Its friday & I felt like posting something funny and I came across this video today while browsing around.. its kind off hilarious.. A woman who is drunk but is not drunk enough either to... watch it, to see for urself...

“It takes only one drink to get me drunk. The trouble is, I can't remember if it's the thirteenth or the fourteenth.”

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Jodhaa Akbar & Whirling Dervishes...

How many of us really liked the movie Jodhaa Akbar.. may be a handful of people. But if I ask how many of us liked the song "Khwaja mere Khwaja..." most of us would say that they liked the song... what was it about the song that so many people liked it.. was it the music, the picturization or the words.. well i would say non of these things alone can be said as the only reason for the song to be a great work of art & in making it so spiritual....

During the movie when I saw the dance it reminded me of something that I had seen before and then there was no stopping I just couldn't sleep till I figured out what is that ritual or for some of us the dance called...

After lot of research and checking various websites I finally found the description and meaning of this ritual/dance form.

"The Whirling Dervishes trace their origin to the 13th century Ottoman Empire. They are also known as the Mevlevi Order and are Sufi, a spiritual offshoot of Islam. Today entertainers, not true Sufi perform most of the shows. Nevertheless, the performances are amazing and the concentration and training required to be able to spin for hours on end is immense.

The dance originates from the Sufi religion. The word Sufi is translated from the Arabic work Suf meaning wool or others believe from the Greek word 'sophos' meaning wisdom. There are also two fables on how the dance began. The first is when Rumi was walking through the goldsmith area of Konya in Turkey. He heard beautiful music in the craftsmen's hammering and began to turn in harmony. The second is the story of a tradesman spinning wool from a bale onto a spindle. In order to prevent the wool from breaking, the spinning movement had to be continuous from the right to the left hand.

The dance is called the Sema and begins with the Dervish extending their arms, the right palm up and the left palm down which could be related to the wool spinning fable. The mystic interpretation is that the power of the heavens enters into the upward extended right palm and passes through the body and leaves the lower left palm to enter into the Earth. The left leg should never be raised. The spinning represents the axis of the planets around the sun.

The word Dervish literally means doorway. He is a mystical dancer who stands between the material and cosmic worlds. Traditionally, the Dervishes start by wearing black cloaks symbolizing tombs, upon removal, so they remove themselves from the world. The purpose of the ritual whirling is to empty himself of all distracting thoughts, placing himself in a trance, his body conquering dizziness. The Sufis are viewed as the ones who are at the door to enlightenment. He accepts that he is the true instrument of God and therefore he does not question the power that comes and leaves him during the spinning trance."

I am sure this definitely serves as lot of information about the Whirling Dervishes.. or you can also check the links below.


Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Testing the Waters…!!!

Have you ever wondered that what it takes to keep that temper in control or to keep yourself in control from yelling at somebody you would not want to yell at… whoa.. I have lately started feeling that I am kind of loosing patience very easily, well I guess I am not.. It’s only the people and the situations that make me over react at times as they call it..

Ok lets understand this… now there is somebody you know for 4 to 5 years and its more or less like knowing them for your whole life and there is not even a single day that you have not spoken to them, and one fine day they just make you feel as if they are taking you for granted ‘cause they think that, come what may you are always going to be there for them & the kind of feeling you have at that point of time confuses you and makes you ask your own self that where the hell is that relationship going? You know that your friend is facing tough time and is trying to fix things in their own life but lately the behavior has changed so much which worries you, that what they are going to make out of their life.

You are giving them space and time, and also you don’t want to leave them on their own or alone ‘cause you know they will get lost if you are not there. Now it’s been more then a week and you want to talk to them about it ‘cause you are worried, but they are just avoiding all the conversations that you try to make… & then you end up yelling at them, not willingly but unknowingly even when you have been telling yourself, that be it whatever, but you will not loose your temper at all.

The response you receive at that time is don’t yell at me..., & it makes you feel as if you have made a complete fool of yourself again & as if you have lost all the right you had on them all this while, good lord, why can’t I just control myself & why can’t I just remember that I don’t have to yell.

Hmmmm… I have been thinking about this for a while now and I guess it’s time to test waters and put our relationship on test, and I should give them some more time to think about what’s happening in and around this relationship and their own life. ‘Cause I am tired of Listening and Saying the word SORRY. I believe that when two people are friends and when they understand each other well they don’t need to give explanations to each other or say that freaky word. So I guess I made my decision but implementation is definitely going to be difficult, for sure…!!!

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Bebasi Dard kaa Aalam....!!!

(bebasi dard kaa aalam, tum mujhe de do apne ghum - 2
khaamoshiyaan bhi do, tanhaaiyaan bhi do
bechaaniyaa bhi de do, de do naa) - 2

(bhigi palkon se churaa lungaa nami
rehane dungaa naa, khahin koi kami) - 2
tumko daaman naa bhigone dungaa
ab kabhi tumko naa rone dungaa
uljhane ghum ki parchhaiye
de do mujhe apni tanhaaiye
gumnamiyaan bhi do, naakaamiyaan bhi do
viraaniyaan bhi de do, de do naa

(tere hotho pe sajaa dungaa hansi
teri raahon mein bhichhaa dungaa khushi) - 2
tum mujhe apnaa maanti ho agar
yu khafaa hoke naa jhukaao nazar
mushkile apni majburi
ho de do mujhe sari benuri
pareshaaniyaaa bhi do, hairaaniyaa bhi do
nhigebaaniyaa bhi de do, de do naa

bebasi dard kaa aalam, tum mujhe de do apne ghum - 2
khaamoshiyaan bhi do, tanhaaiyaan bhi do,
bechaniyaa bhi de do, (de do naa- 2)

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Why I Still Love You ?

I thought about you today, And for the first time it was not about the past, or the lies, it was not about the hurt, or the tears, It was not about my broken heart or what I used to wish the future would be. It was about the end to all that, and the beginning of a friendship. So I don't know why people say love never ends in friendship because mine for you has ...

Can't say how I feel, Can't tell if my heart would heal, but I always knew from the start I never really had your heart. So leave me, now before I cry. The pain is too much to say GOODBYE. But always remember each tear I shed is an I love you left unsaid.

Monday, March 3, 2008

Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street

Just another Saturday 1st march and was getting bored sitting at home.. finally decided to go for a movie with a close friend.. checked the newspaper and there you go a Johnny Depp movie great... "Sweeney Todd".. hmmmm but I was little sceptical as didn't see any trailer (thanks to daily schedule & lack of watching t.v.) and also did not hear anything about it till then... but 'cause its a Johnny Depp movie decided to go and watch the movie and dragged my friend along.. poor guy I guess he got bored watching the movie, but I definitely enjoyed the movie... here is little something about the movie.. "A Dark Musical"...

"Tim Burton was always known to be a director that didn't attend to the Academy's personal taste. His movies were true auteur works, always with a Gothic stunning visual and stories there weren't always what it seemed. It was as if Burton were filming every movie on Halloween. Now, however, it's going to be hard for the Academy to ignore Burton's new film- definitely his best one. Sweeney Todd offers the unlikely pairing of musical and horror. And, man, it works splendidly.

The story begins with Benjamin Barker's arrest by Judge Turpin, a true personification of evil, a man who doesn't think twice in convicting Barker for a crime he did not commit. Sent away of London, he returns with a new facet: Sweeney Todd, the Demon Barber of Fleet Street. Until this moment on, his barbershop is scenery to grim assassination- through which the evidences of murder are kept hidden thanks to the help of Mrs. Lovett, the baker. Sweeney vows revenge against the judge.

Burton's direction is truly fantastic, exploring his already trademark visuals with bravura. This time, the dark pictures really suit the story, in a way that they both contrast each other; for no matter how dark the city is, it can't compare to the citizens that live within it. Sweeney, once a pure man, becomes the darkest of them all. And there is no better actor in the world that could portray this like Johnny Depp does. His performance is a defining one, one that goes far beyond the Jack Sparrows, Edward Scissorhands, or J.M Barries that Depp portrayed with perfection. Sweeney Todd is a man torn apart by vengeance, a man that answers only to the call of death. Depp illustrates the psychological factors of the character in subtle nuances, giving one of the greatest performances in the history of cinema. A true achievement that lives up to the excellence of the entire movie. "

Sunday, March 2, 2008

You Were My Everything....

This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy.

Saturday, March 1, 2008


Zindagi Hai dhuan to kya
Bujh gayi har subah to kya
Rootha mujhse khuda to kya
Ho gaye hum juda to kya
Faasle they hazaaron darmiyan,
Waqt ke they hazaaron imtehaan
Fir bhi ban ke nishaan,
Tere honthon ke kisi kone mein Hansi ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Teri aankhon ke chipe dard mein Aansoo ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Bewajah har wajah to kya
Begunahii hai gunaah to kya
Beasar hai dua to kya
Ho gaye hum juda to kya
Raaz gehre hazaron bepanah
Lafz thehare hazaaron bejubaan
Fir bhi ban ke nishaan Tere honthe ke kisi kone mein Hansi ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Tere kesu ke mude pannon meinYaadon ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Mehfuz hoon Teri aankhon mein
Mehfuz hoonTeri yaadon mein
Mehfuz hoonTeri baaton mein
Mehfuz hoonTere baalon mein
Mehfuz hoon
Faasle the hazaron darmiyaan
Waqt ki thi hazaron aandhiyan
Fir bhi ban ke nishaan
Tere honthon ke kisi kone mein Hansi ke tarah
main mehfuz hoon
Tere kaandhe ke chipe til meinVaadon ki tarah
main mehfuz hoon

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