Just another roller coaster ride...

This one post have been in draft for almost a month.. somehow I decided not to write anymore, well who knows when ur mind can again change and you decide to start writting again... well here I am back yet once again and decided to finish this post..

March got over long back and its seems like that the life went through hell lot of miserable things... A job, people & place that I used to love but hated the management so decided to leave it at the start of the year.. Few friends whom I decided to leave behind as it was more of a burden & a formality to keep them further as a friend..

Lost two dear friends in last twelve months.

Life went through lot of changes, people who were close went far and people who were far came close... last two years of my life made me meet some of the worst people I have ever come across in my personal and professional life.. people who like to assume, make perceptions, dis-respect others, can perform cheap stunts to show others down, selfish & self centered.. and the list goes on...

Its an old saying but yes its true.. people can be egoistic bastards.. when u have already lost a battle and it does not exist anymore, they want to still give it another try to win an already lost battle... they find it so hard to accept that they have lost and they lost it being a MAN, and that too they lost it from a WOMAN..

I dont understand why people find it so difficult to leave their past behind and move on.. why they want to try and stop the sand of time to slip from their hands even when they know that when they would open their hands nothing would be left... Is it so diifficult to face the reality or the truth, well I believe not..

Namaste London...

Its been quiet some time that I have seen this movie.. but there is something about this movie that keeps reminding me of it again & again... there is a scene where Akshay Kumar is telling Katrina that how much he loves her and he is going to wait for her throughout his life...

"Ishq de mere mitra pehchan ki, mit jaye ye jadoo zidd aapnan de"
meaning : Sache pyaar ka matlab sirf haasil karna nahi hota...!!

In Loving Memory of my Angel Sherry...

7th Dec 1996 - 18th Mar 2008

An angel, a friend, a listener..... & I am falling short of words now.. my mind has suddenly stopped working and I still want to think that this news about you is just another nightmare.. I m not ready to except this fact that, this time when I m going to come home you wont come running up to me to see me at the gate... the thought of you not being there following me to every room I go to, makes my heart skip a heartbeat..

I still remember the day I got you home and you were 29 days old... and I was not ready for my exams to get over to bring you home.. I luv u & miss u so much... you were the first dog that I ever decided to bring home against all odds..

"Baby girl no matter how far you are right now you will always be in our heart; thanks for the wonderful 11 years you gave us, for all the love you gave us; Our house will never be the same without you. We love you always !"

Not drunk enough...!!

Its friday & I felt like posting something funny and I came across this video today while browsing around.. its kind off hilarious.. A woman who is drunk but is not drunk enough either to... watch it, to see for urself...

“It takes only one drink to get me drunk. The trouble is, I can't remember if it's the thirteenth or the fourteenth.”

Jodhaa Akbar & Whirling Dervishes...

How many of us really liked the movie Jodhaa Akbar.. may be a handful of people. But if I ask how many of us liked the song "Khwaja mere Khwaja..." most of us would say that they liked the song... what was it about the song that so many people liked it.. was it the music, the picturization or the words.. well i would say non of these things alone can be said as the only reason for the song to be a great work of art & in making it so spiritual....

During the movie when I saw the dance it reminded me of something that I had seen before and then there was no stopping I just couldn't sleep till I figured out what is that ritual or for some of us the dance called...

After lot of research and checking various websites I finally found the description and meaning of this ritual/dance form.

"The Whirling Dervishes trace their origin to the 13th century Ottoman Empire. They are also known as the Mevlevi Order and are Sufi, a spiritual offshoot of Islam. Today entertainers, not true Sufi perform most of the shows. Nevertheless, the performances are amazing and the concentration and training required to be able to spin for hours on end is immense.

The dance originates from the Sufi religion. The word Sufi is translated from the Arabic work Suf meaning wool or others believe from the Greek word 'sophos' meaning wisdom. There are also two fables on how the dance began. The first is when Rumi was walking through the goldsmith area of Konya in Turkey. He heard beautiful music in the craftsmen's hammering and began to turn in harmony. The second is the story of a tradesman spinning wool from a bale onto a spindle. In order to prevent the wool from breaking, the spinning movement had to be continuous from the right to the left hand.

The dance is called the Sema and begins with the Dervish extending their arms, the right palm up and the left palm down which could be related to the wool spinning fable. The mystic interpretation is that the power of the heavens enters into the upward extended right palm and passes through the body and leaves the lower left palm to enter into the Earth. The left leg should never be raised. The spinning represents the axis of the planets around the sun.

The word Dervish literally means doorway. He is a mystical dancer who stands between the material and cosmic worlds. Traditionally, the Dervishes start by wearing black cloaks symbolizing tombs, upon removal, so they remove themselves from the world. The purpose of the ritual whirling is to empty himself of all distracting thoughts, placing himself in a trance, his body conquering dizziness. The Sufis are viewed as the ones who are at the door to enlightenment. He accepts that he is the true instrument of God and therefore he does not question the power that comes and leaves him during the spinning trance."

I am sure this definitely serves as lot of information about the Whirling Dervishes.. or you can also check the links below.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mevlevi

or

http://www.dankphotos.com/whirling/

Testing the Waters…!!!

Have you ever wondered that what it takes to keep that temper in control or to keep yourself in control from yelling at somebody you would not want to yell at… whoa.. I have lately started feeling that I am kind of loosing patience very easily, well I guess I am not.. It’s only the people and the situations that make me over react at times as they call it..

Ok lets understand this… now there is somebody you know for 4 to 5 years and its more or less like knowing them for your whole life and there is not even a single day that you have not spoken to them, and one fine day they just make you feel as if they are taking you for granted ‘cause they think that, come what may you are always going to be there for them & the kind of feeling you have at that point of time confuses you and makes you ask your own self that where the hell is that relationship going? You know that your friend is facing tough time and is trying to fix things in their own life but lately the behavior has changed so much which worries you, that what they are going to make out of their life.

You are giving them space and time, and also you don’t want to leave them on their own or alone ‘cause you know they will get lost if you are not there. Now it’s been more then a week and you want to talk to them about it ‘cause you are worried, but they are just avoiding all the conversations that you try to make… & then you end up yelling at them, not willingly but unknowingly even when you have been telling yourself, that be it whatever, but you will not loose your temper at all.

The response you receive at that time is “don’t yell at me...”, & it makes you feel as if you have made a complete fool of yourself again & as if you have lost all the right you had on them all this while, good lord, why can’t I just control myself & why can’t I just remember that I don’t have to yell.

Hmmmm… I have been thinking about this for a while now and I guess it’s time to test waters and put our relationship on test, and I should give them some more time to think about what’s happening in and around this relationship and their own life. ‘Cause I am tired of Listening and Saying the word SORRY. I believe that when two people are friends and when they understand each other well they don’t need to give explanations to each other or say that freaky word. So I guess I made my decision but implementation is definitely going to be difficult, for sure…!!!

Bebasi Dard kaa Aalam....!!!

(bebasi dard kaa aalam, tum mujhe de do apne ghum - 2
khaamoshiyaan bhi do, tanhaaiyaan bhi do
bechaaniyaa bhi de do, de do naa) - 2

(bhigi palkon se churaa lungaa nami
rehane dungaa naa, khahin koi kami) - 2
tumko daaman naa bhigone dungaa
ab kabhi tumko naa rone dungaa
uljhane ghum ki parchhaiye
de do mujhe apni tanhaaiye
gumnamiyaan bhi do, naakaamiyaan bhi do
viraaniyaan bhi de do, de do naa

(tere hotho pe sajaa dungaa hansi
teri raahon mein bhichhaa dungaa khushi) - 2
tum mujhe apnaa maanti ho agar
yu khafaa hoke naa jhukaao nazar
mushkile apni majburi
ho de do mujhe sari benuri
pareshaaniyaaa bhi do, hairaaniyaa bhi do
nhigebaaniyaa bhi de do, de do naa

bebasi dard kaa aalam, tum mujhe de do apne ghum - 2
khaamoshiyaan bhi do, tanhaaiyaan bhi do,
bechaniyaa bhi de do, (de do naa- 2)